The Internet Ruined My Life.

After watching that fuckery of a movie 'The Craigslist Killer on Lifetime...of all networks to watch which I am still in amazement about, I have come to the brash conclusion that people have too much fucking time time on their hands devoted to the internet and create the opportunity for the internet to ruin potentially great things to come. People are so hooked to the internet like its digital crack. (which it is) I have seen countless talk shows and news studies that discuss and show how people are losing jobs, money, family, and even relationships (can you believe this shit?!) all because they do not know how to simply sign the fuck off of the internet and live in the real world from time to time. I have even witnessed it first hand how people will literally procrastinate doing things like homework, eat, sleep, and love because of the internet. I cannot sit here and act like I ignored a few homework assignments because what I was doing in Facebook and Twitter was far more interesting, but still I know when to buckle down and sign the hell off. Old folks hate it, our young generation love and adore it...but all things that can be done online are not always best. For example relationships, take it from me...I met my last two girlfriends on a social site...no shame in admitting that...they were awesome...then after the honeymoon stage...well you know how that goes. Things just become so difficult and you cannot help but sit and wonder what the hell happened to that person that was so amazing in the beginning. After those experiences I'm not going to count out online dating or anything, but I will take MORE time to get to know the person before I nose dive into a disaster. It's like after you have been through two online relationships gone sour you can't help but sit behind your screen and laugh to yourself at the people who are trying to find their soul mates on Facebook and Twitter...hell even MySpace if they still use it. You see it all the time, dudes going at females online with sexy, sweet, and provocative profile pictures not realizing two very important things. 1. If you do so happen to get her out on a date once you get her number, then what? because let's face it majority of guys online are on the hunt for quick and "easy pussy". They can sit there and talk a big game online and throw as many sweet compliments to the girl as the want, but somewhere down the line the hidden agenda will come to light. But I digress...if she does let the guy have sex with her what is that saying about her & him? Oh I don't know...maybe he or she has fucked a few other people offline on the first meeting...can't even call it a date...just like you. 2. Most dudes fail to realize that just because the girl is looking like a video vixen in her profile picture does not mean that underneath all that glitz and glamor there is not a brain present...or so we would hope. I do not know what "easy" looks like, but I can get some sort of image in my head based on what I have seen some of my friends go at while we're out or at a party and stuff. I don't know...I tweet it often as I can just so the people that follow do not forget that "Twitter is not eHarmony or Match.com!" Now it is one thing to be killed romantically in the hands of the internet, but how the hell do you let that keep you from getting a job?! Isn't that where all the companies making you apply anyway these days? (I love this concept because it is eco-friendly!) All that time people spend watching YouTube, Worldstarhiphop, and horoscopes you would think they could take some time out of their browsing session to go ahead and fill out a few fucking applications!...but not everyone thinks like that. Downloading all that fucking music! How about you download a job motherfucker! Friendships...well they must not be too strong of friendships if you let gossip via Facebook and subtweets break up a bond that is suppose to be as strong as duct tape. You see it time and time again, two people going at it through wall posts or tweets verbally abusing the holy fuck out of each other, for most people it is great entertainment, which it is, but people are really missing the big picture..which is...what ever happened to doing this over the phone...or better yet face to face...and no I'm not talking about that cool ass feature the new iPhone has! People do not give a damn about privacy anymore...I mean i sit up here on my blog and tell stories of my life because I am conscious and comfortable enough to know the information I give out here is not damaging...and if it is so what!They are funny!...or so people tell me. But when you are arguing publicly arguing with someone so all of your friends and followers (which majority of the time are people you never even said hello to, you just have a lot too seem cool) can see your dirty laundry you look immature, ignorant, and dumb as shit! The sad part is, even after they air each others dirty laundry they're going to be friends again in a week or so and right back on the same bullshit online a month later. I have not seen too many situations personally that have been created due to online gambling so I cannot speak on it, but I will say this...do not lose your family and fucking house for some bullshit online, that that shit to Vegas! Wanna catch a cheater?...that should be the title of new tv show or something, but people are so dumb! They are really dumb forreal! (Antoine Dodson voice) How easy is it to get caught cheating online?! well let's ask a few of the dumb asses that I know that have been "caught up" online...let's see it all starts when the girl your dating starts looking at your page and sees a particular female writing you shit like "hey babe", "hey boo", the kissy face smiley, and the all-time famous! "why didn't you text me back last night?" I do not condone cheating at all, I think it's the most cowardly thing a person could ever do to another, but cmon now! Another way to catch a cheater online...you don't need their password or nothing... the infamous unwanted or unknowingly photo's that were tagged on Facebook will serve you right. Remember how she said she wasn't going out on Saturday night, but then all of a sudden you see some tagged pics of her posted on Sunday afternoon, the very next day with her all hugged up sitting on the dudes lap who she said was "just a friend" from her physics class?...we have a word for that where I'm from...bullshit! The funniest part about catching a cheater online is the confrontation of the person who cheated...but do these people have enough sense to meet up, text, or call each other like grown civilized people? If you answered "no" you have a fucking brain! If you answered "yes" you must be the most naive motherfucker on the face of the earth! First thing that happens is the subliminal status update or tweet that usually says "I'm done, fuck this bullshit!" then the person will go on their Facebook and change their status to single without the other person knowing, so know when the cheater wakes up and signs online first thing in the morning like everyone does these days they will be like "I'm single?" this is when the wall to wall war begins. Think I'm wrong? Just take a look for yourself. Everybody knows somebody or has a friend who is a cheater. Point blank and period folks is that the internet is awesome, fun, and very mysterious... but please please please do not let this awesome tool be the thing that burdens your lifestyle and potentially your future...it's just technology...not your brain...use it don't abuse and overuse it.

The Joy.

Whooo lawd! This semester has damn near pushed me over the edge: The car trouble, the issues in my math class, the two car accidents (which were very minor Thank God), the drama I had to deal with at home, and then being without a car for damn near the entire second half of the semester...it was hell. But luckily I have angels surrounding me and so much positivity from other people surrounding me that it is almost impossible for me to fail, or at least it felt like it. Usually I write about everything else going on with me through story form and things like that, but not this time. I must tell everybody about these amazing people that have come into my life this semester. First things first, I wanna thank my family for being there for me all semester pushing me and pushing me keeping me on the right track and making sure I had what I needed to succeed, and all the tough love you guys showed me when needed, because I know I am not always easiest person to tell off. It all started back in the summer when my homey Fred, who I went to high school and worked with over the summer with at the Library of Congress said that he would help me out with finding a place to stay. Unfortunately, that didn't work out since everything was so last minute, but luckily I bought a car the week before the semester started. If it is any lesson I learned this semester, is you get what you pay for, and having a car is an investment where the more you put into it, the more you out of it. Just don't tell the people who make crappy ass American cars in Detroit that; they charge an arm and a leg for a car and all you get is something that is less durable than a pinky finger with no cartilage. My car had damage, got damaged more, bullshitted with the insurance company, then they damaged by pockets...bye bye awesomely handsome refund check. I met Brittanie, who I had been cool with all Summer via Twitter and BBM who went to my new school, Towson University, and on teh first day of class I met her and her friends. They were all so nice and inviting, and they continued to show that same type of amazingness throughout the whole semester. But anyway, me and mom had our issue, I lost my job, and had to find a place to stay or I was going to miss classes and possibly fail courses. I hit Fred up, and told him my situation, at first he said that he and his roommates already had an issue with people staying over, so at the time his answer was no. The about ten minutes later he called and said that he and his roommates talked it out and gave me the okay to stay over. I would like to thank my Padonia Boys Fred, Braulio, and Greg for letting me stay for so long, what was supposed to turn into a week, turned into damn near two months. At times I felt like I was cramping their style, but nonetheless they not once let it show and let me stay there as if I were one of their own and I love and appreciate them for that. In between my time at Padonia and school, Brittanie (@IAmDruggz) said that I could stay over their place for a few days from time to time if I ever needed to. I have never appreciated sleeping on the floor so much in my life! Leni! (@MakeMeCookies09) thank you so much for making up the coziest blankets and comforters on the floor making that cold, hard apparatus feel like a cloud to sleep on. I Wanna thank all the ladies in room 303 for letting me crash and party there, I will never forget it. I would also like to thank my man Stevie, who Brittanie introduced me to this semester for just being a cool as dude, and I appreciate the camera dude! Hell, after this semester I may be right back in 303 during the Spring, who knows it all depends on those people at the damn housing department. Kevin! My man! the RA apparently, check you out! Thank you for being the same cool ass dude from high school even though I haven't seen you in years until this semester for letting me crash on the futon at your place dude, and introducing me to that cute girl who came over and talked about how strong her pimp game was. Jenn, Winta, and Bridget your place has become a home away from home for me I actually feel like a part of this apartment, especially after last night when we got it in for Candace's birthday! Kim, thank you and your roommates for letting me stay over that one night when I was MC Hammered, and you're an awesome snuggler by the way haha. If I left anybody out, I'll probably go back and revise this shit before you even get to read this part about me forgetting anybody. Now, where do I go from here? let's see I have a lot to take care of before next semester. First thing, get my damn car back, which my uncle said is up and ready to go whenever I am ready to pick it up, take it to inspection, and get my tags. I am so full of confidence and love after this semester that I feel that I can take on anything thrown at me. I learned so many lessons this semester, learned so much about people, and made so many friends this semester it's insane. My grades were "okay" but next semester I want them to be outstanding. Do I hear Dean's list? Who knows? I just wanna wake up everyday and better myself to the fullest extent. This was the toughest thing I've ever been through in my short life thus far, but I am so glad that I made it through and finished strong, but none of it would have been possible without the help and loyalty of the people I mentioned earlier, they are fuggin awesome! Oh yea I just picked up theater as a double major! I'm going to start acting and producing my own stuff! Be on the look out people! I dream big!
"You start off fast then you wheezin' in the back
So even if I slack, I got enough lead way...and I'm back, without leavin' I'm here, but you can't see him." -Jay-Z

Let's Take a Walk (2008)

I wrote this in 2008, haven't changed a word.

Lets take a walk a day after we had freezin rain.
Step from school, to the bus, to the train.
To meet a lil lady drivin me insane.
Chai Tea in her hand, a lil spills on me causing a stain.
Walkin thru the frigid weather never felt better.
Standin next 2 sum1 makin me feel as warm as leather.
Sittin on the bench and read sum letters.
I'm wrappin up in my arms just like your sweater.
We walkin talkin lovin dreamin thru the market
On my last dollar, yet I feel rich with lint in my pocket
Priceless even, mom thinks shes at home so early she'll be leavin
Oh well, 5 minutes five hours rite?
Get home and talk 2 her til late in the nite
Lets take a walk thru the cut I got robbed in after our first fight
Cut up a sandwich and spill kool-aid on my shirt to get u rite lolz
Now the two walkin still walk 2gether, except one patiently waits and tries to calm down.
The other ventured off onto the bad side of town.
Where only pain awaits, and smiles turn to frowns
No ringling brothers but ahead is a clown.
The walk is now a run.
For love, for everything that was cried over, fought over, and argued over.
The lonely one waits and there she is comin over his shoulder.
Still with the same warmth, never got colder.
He'll always remain 4 her, never movin like a plastered down boulder.

Half of What You See.

Is the cup half full, or half empty? Is blue really blue, or blue blue because that is what we were told since birth? How do you know that red is not yellow, that green is not black, and purple is not white? My point is that as humans we were all taught something based on someone else's interpretation. Do not get me wrong, I know that the sky is blue, and that blue is blue...I mean it is all I know after all...but I would not necessarily call it factual. This past week on that fuckery of a site we call Facebook, which is struggling to stay relevant and interest, has had another fad touchdown and get everyone...or almost everyone to join in and participate. This recent craze was for users to change their profile pictures to their all-time favorite cartoon new or old. The reason behind it was supposedly to raise awareness and money for abused children. I was very skeptical at first about the whole thing, but hell when I started seeing my friends pictures go from being themselves to Reboot (remember that cartoon?!), classic Looney Toons, and old Nickelodeon toons characters I could not help but hop on the bandwagon and change my picture to Foghorn Leghorn...if you don't know who Foghorn Leghorn is, he is the big ass country rooster who was always fighting with the dog or trying to convince the little chicken hawk that he was not a hen. If you still don't know, you should be ashamed of yourself! My picture was changed up until about Monday night when I got a phone call from a friend who told me that the people who were responsible for the profile picture epidemic were in fact PEDOPHILES! It was all over the news apparently, and they say that they did it because having a cartoon as a picture appears more inviting and youthful to potential victims. I hate and despise pedophiles, fuck praying for em! You ever seen a pastor preach to Satan? Not in these parts! I immediately took down my picture, told my friends, and they followed suit...well most of them at least...I am pretty sure that a few of the people I went to high school or community college with are potential pedophiles anyway. They always did look at high school freshmen a bit odd. But I digress. They had all of us fooled! We saw "help abused children" and went ape shit and changed our pictures! Sure the whole event was a spectacular Saturday morning/Classic Nicktoon reunion amongst friends, but what bullshit! We all thought we were helping for a good cause, even though now money went toward the campaign, THANK GOD because we all would have been uberly pissed if we sent pedophiles money to spend on gas money for trips transportation to their young victims houses. Where the fuck is Chris Hansen when you need him! (Host of Datelines 'How to Catch a Predator') But the internet is filled with millions of ways to manipulate people's minds and tricking them into believe that they are doing good, when they are really doing more damage than imagined.